I’m sorry to hear about your fights with your brother. Perhaps he is only worried about his wife? You do seem to misunderstand each other a lot—more than when you were living. You not have very different needs now.
The nights have been very long, for me, at least. I have a room apart from the squires. I often worry about Evelos. No news is tentatively good news, or I suppose, but I wish I knew for sure, either way, his fate.
Be safe yourself, and fight well,